Stupid! Stupid!! Stupid!!!

I hate when I do something stupid!

I've been dealing with my diabetes since November 2005 and I feel like I have a pretty good handle on it. I bring my test kit and snacks wherever I go just in case I have problems with my blood sugar. I think I've done really well so far.

So why does my brain take a vacation every now and then and I act like my blood sugar isn't an issue? It's always an issue. It doesn't control my life but I have to be aware of it all of the time.

Today,I had a 10am hair appointment. While I was under the dryer,my blood sugar suddenly dropped and I felt dizzy. I didn't have my test kit or any snacks with me because I ate breakfast before I left. So Stupid!!

I didn't want to bother Karen,my hairdresser,because she was doing someone else's hair while I was under the dryer. I got up and grabbed a Dum-Dum lollipop (how appropriate for me!) and ate it as fast as I could hoping the sugar would help.

When my blood sugar drops,I'm just very quiet and focused on feeling better. I sucked so hard on this lollipop,I could've been recruited for a porn movie! I finally bit into it and swallowed all the pieces. Then I grabbed another pop and sat back in my chair.

One of the hairdressers went by and said I looked really tired. Karen looked at me and said,"You have no color left in your face. What's wrong?" I told her my blood sugar was low. She asked me what I needed and did I want her to run next door to the sub shop and get me anything. I said that I'd be okay and I'd go get a soda at CVS which is across the parking lot as soon as my hair was done.

I just wanted to smack myself in the head. Why didn't I pack my peanut butter crackers or a granola bar? I know better than to leave the house without snacks.
When this happened last year at the American Girl store in NY,I vowed this would never happen again. Here I am....moron of the month!

In the end,I managed to survive until I got to CVS and bought a bottle of Coke. I opened it and drank some before I even made it to the register. As soon as I got home I had chicken and veggies.

I feel so much better now but I'm kind of mad at myself. I know I can never be without back up snacks. I will take a lunch box with me all the time when Lillianna and I go to the dude ranch in June. I do not want this to happen again!